finally writing songs again, though im struggling on lyrics, ill get through it though

cant wait for band camp!
seems like its ganna be fun, plus i get to play guitar, which makes it so much more better\
itll also hopefully help me on my sight reading skills

well....... other than that i have nothing to say in this journal,
well other than the weird dream...

i never have sex dreams... but this wasnt one, its so confusing, and there has got to be a reason behind it,
im going to write it down so i dont forget it

well i think i went to a band assembly, and then i met this girl,short black hair, normal size in about everyway, not skinny, not big, though slightly shorter than me, i said something then she kissed me on the cheek, then i returned the favor, she looked me in the eyes and started blushing. but i could tell she just wanted sex, weird as it sounds. we get on a school bus, i remember i ride in a car, but follow her anyways, we start kissing in the back, but then she says stop because someone is watching...... its john..... the john that Elizabeth dated.......yea, i then i smack him upside the head.
the rest was staring at her on the bus wondering if it was going to go places emotionally instead of physically, i was wondering if she just wanted sex or if she wanted a relationship.
i didnt want to date her just for sex, even though she was decent looking
i was pleased but sad at the thought of a lack of a relationship

i think it means sex is not what i want so dont get sex confused for love.... but then again, im just guessing